I hate this part right here.
-Pussy Cat Dolls
Banging on the tables, screaming for no one but yourself to hear, figeting as though i'd thrown a million army ants in your pants.
yikes! V is used to playing around and acting dead (which he does very well, I must say). But then I started teaching some more and he said this, in a jokingly fashion, "I want to commit sucide alr," then he starts pulling his hair.
yikes! THIS reaction is what stress can do to kids (overload of sch homework, tuition homework, pressure from external parties.) This isnt normal v-behavior!!
yikes! Stress Management tips for managing school:
(a) Plan your work and work your plan. Schedule time for homework and stick to your schedule. If you need a break after school, take it and complete homework after R&R.
(b) Learn to prioritize. Get done for tomorrow what needs to be done. What's more important, what homework has a nearer dateline.
(c) Be on time. Discomfort = Stress
(d) Get organized the night before. Pack up your bag the night before with everything you'll need!
(e)Eat before any exam. Aside from making you feel tired, an empty stomach can also make you anxious and shaky.
Adapted from, http://www.stressmanagementtips.com/school.htm
Kids have stress too! Deep breaths people!
When Pleasing others is hurting you.
Dr. David Hawkins
Magical reflections. Let me try to bring you through this as honestly and authentic as I can. I've made many decisions based on how things can work out more conveniently for me. I was kinda taught that I shouldnt be looking for convenience but sacrifice. I experienced what aj would call 'holy fear' that all might learn from me. I made plans all the way till 2010 (a short time of a year?) Seems like nothing right? Everyone makes plans. One night as I was doing my quiet time, a voice inside spoke to me through reading of simple qt materials. It said this. You did wrong, I am angry, I want to punish you, I will take away everything you worked so hard for, I wont give you what you desire most. Truly I felt this double-edge sword pierce the entire valves, vessels and pump machine they call "heart." Truly I had no warning with the courage needed to muster such responsibility. I was darn right scared out of my wits until I couldnt think clearly, felt like I would have shivered to purple-black, trembled as though tremours would have reached the all time highest on the Richter scale. That's how scared I was! It was an unbelievable paranomal experience that only someone who's been through it, would be able to fathom. I felt like I didnt have much time to do almost anything. Talking to jin made me feel more grounded. I felt the presence of a holy-being speak to me more seriously, more angrily than I've ever felt before. I never got scolded by anyone like this before-it was fearful. The last time was probably mummy screaming at me with the cane in hand giving her motherly-i-care-for-you-so-i-know-you-need-this kinda speech, for fighting physically with my brother, and he was prolly standing there beside me, but the oldest one always "gets luckier!" From this experience over one night, I woke up thanking God for yet another day that I might live. People talk about thanking God all the time, for me, I truly approached it totally different from how I always used to thank God, approached with super reverence, that I so truly appreciated waking to the sound of my alarm. gee I was so happy I texted jin, Thank God I'm alive today! lol I once told god to let me go through things, suffering and all that I might understand what my friends go through so i can be a source of encouragement to them (you know, make them feel better) but this I mean.. Woah. I found urgency in evangelising, I found urgency in living each day as fulfilling as I can, I found appreciation in things I took for granted and I found holy fear, I found jesus's interception with an angel, to be comforting, I found resolve to make intercession for myself and others..etc Truly god's anger doesnt last because parents only discipline because they want to make you realise something (cos i was too stubborn or ignorant before) lol I give because I might not live to give tomorrow, I teach, I learn, I share, I listen, I love, I forgive, I trust, I belong, I pray, I cry, I find inner joy, I seek, I am hugged, I follow.
I am thankful for the inspiration to write, something which i enjoy doing. Our lives will point to him through our thoughts, our words and our actions. When we truly believe, we will live a life that is filled with loving and serving others. The bigger the plane is the more people you can carry, while you fly higher and further (as quoted from ck's email)
I pray you'll be my eyes
And watch her where she goes
And help her to be wise
Help me to let go
It was my parents anniversary on independence day july 04! We had a simple chinese dinner w/o the boy. I might not understand what it feels like to be "married" just yet but I do have my own fairytale ending that I hold on to, my alabaster box. Mummy kept saying during dinner "wait till you are married...then you will know, wait till you are married...then we see what your husband is like, wait till you are married..." (the list goes on) I believe God made it possible that they might love each other, no one else could have made it possible that 2 people, different in ways, coming from different backgrounds, growing up in different parts of sg, having different values on life, love and family-That this union might still be possible after 2 decades and more. Truly it is a feat and a miracle now that 2 people can stay together for this long and this calls for a celebration (self-contained joy) haha :p I hope they stay together for as long as they both shall live cos I cannot fathom being apart from them separately.
He did it! I was able to attend corporate prayer this week because I didnt have tuition. lol I was praying in my heart and I really wanted to go. But even though I didnt verbalise my heart's desire, he heard my thoughts and just as I was walking out of school to take the bus to sgar, i received a call from v's mom asking me to cancel tuition. LOL Amazing not? haha coincidence is god's way of remaining anoymous. We prayed and prayed for different ministries during cp and I committed the filipino ministry, the youth ministry, ps sk's health, debbs new leadership in ym and p-sch and our fellow m's in et into god's hands that we might intercede on other people's behalf that god will answer our prayers when we pray for not just ourselves but others as well. (Mq made me focus on the prayers instead of talking-random) haha I was just about to mention another amazing story of an answered prayer. Debbs told us that a 5-year bed-ridden woman walked after 1hr of constant praying for her to be healed of her disability. amazing story man! I super want to hear more of such stories. If only he'd give me the healing anointing too, I would heal my ah ma and laypheck from any more leggy-turmoils for the glory of him, not me. :(
Happy youth sunday to all! Message about the drop of sewage water, message on repentance, words like double-edge sword. ouch! We had small group outing and ALL 20 girls headed to mq's place to play cards, taboo and watch the prince and me. Ha North south east west who's the best, group 2 group 2 is the best! HAHA We won the taboo challenge! Super fun! :D yy wants to join us next time, she say she likes to attend all-girls outing! :D
Quote of the day:
Don’t miss Gods symphony tomorrow… there’s a part He’s assigned for you to play. 
GG.
Just like heaven's walkway, Hannah cruised through the aisle of aunty j's wonderful parkway. It was the most breath-taking experience and I shared this with mq and aj. The in-house experience was one of terror and everything felt cummblesome. It could have been the unfamilar faces, it could also have been the familiar faces that felt unfamiliar all of a sudden. But ultimately God was glorified. All the wonderful stories of hope, love and grace were shared. We are all accountable to each other and it's thru prayer that all things are made possible. Death is not the end for christians, it is just the beginning. So i pray that whatever happens to xx and ms's family members (both down with cancer) that they will be with God in peace. :) :) I hope all is well with everyone I met at the cg and that I will be able to learn new things next time i visit the castle.
We serve an awesome creative god. ha ha And so I shall remember to keep the sabbath holy (saturday you know) haha Weekends are almost here, make good plans that might edify others and even if it means not having so much self time, God is glorified. :D mission is just only the beginning! CONGRATULATIONS to mq who passed her driving! :p
Of all the things you wear, your expression is the most important.
When Life gets hard and you get weary, what'd you do? Swallow some pills, drink detergent, slash your wrist? Or could you decide to pray and pray and have a good night's sleep after praying and wake up in the morning, fresh and all ready to re-start a NEW DAY? :D
I have had to struggle with muscle cramps and also with walking so much in the lab, but I know that although I might be working for my workplace, but ultimately I am working to please God. When your focus is to the one up there, then you find you wont be so frustrated with pleasing people, you wont be so frustrated with the job or the long hours but rather that life is not a sprint but a marathon. What's the hurry anyway? (unless you have another appointment afterwards)
Sometimes I do find myself rushing home from work to hide out in my comfy bed and find rest. Sometimes I rush home to spend time with my family only to find the home vacant as well. I read a quote once about the difference between a house and a home. A house is a Home is where people understand you- Christian Morgenstern (how true!)
A lot of things I share here are just flowing words that come out from the back of my head. You may ask, am I really feeling this way or have I gone through all this. Possibly! But more importantly where do my ideas come from, from my thoughts. Who controls my thoughts, God does. Ever wonder how come sometimes an idea comes out from "nowhere" and you just somehow can be so creative or have such a wonderful story to share, or a prompting to sms someone or do something nice for someone. Everything comes from something or somewhere. My ideas come from God.
Of all the things I wanna share, I wanna share that my workplace is seriously very good. It has very well-experienced, long-timers. LP is very patient with me and she's very steady and calm and I can learn a lot from just observing how she does things. It's good that she is always so well-prepared and does things in advance. I like her style and wanna learn from her. She doesnt make me feel stressed up and all the lab personnel and my new colleagues always make sure I'm not too stress or tired. They have also very high competence in welfare. *thumbs up* I have already begun working and will continue for as long as they need me here. Afterwhich I might find another job. Haha This odd-job thing is seriously a little ma fan cos still must go for interviews but then every experience is a good experience and can learn something from it and be better and more prepared for the next interview. KR, a personal assistant gave a review about working in his office, he said this: Every job I have had since then seems to have addressed a particular bit of me that needed mending. You feel me? haha
I have learnt from my previous workplace that I suck at admin, cant do admin and I spoke wit sy and he said he sucked at admin after trying it too. LOL So my previous workplace taught me more about body language (looking at people's eyes when they speak, cos often I was too caught up with the task, I forget to listen attentively and show respect for the person speaking to me.) I also learnt to have a sense of urgency with my work, faster is always better but you have to be accurate with your work as well eh. And when I was struggling, papa always encouraged and reminded me that life or work is all about BALANCE! When you tip the scale far too over one side, you will start to feel that something else isnt right and by the hard or soft way, you will have to come back to this phrase. Life or work is all about balance! :)
In the book I am reading now it shares this insightful thing about christians in the workplace and how other people see us. "People are generally not anti-christians when they hear of someone's faith. Ian, who works at IT, told me, 'People have a tendency to treat it as though you've told them you like fencing- nice for you, but who cares?' There will be lots of challenges but also lots of opportunities eh. We also need to ja-ga our work committments as well as be able to build meaningful relationships at work. If you dont believe me, just ask all the working adults you know, lots of them dont have time for family, meet-ups with their sec sch friends, no time for holiday. Sometimes we are so caught up with responsibility and making sure we keep our jobs (esp in this tough times) How we use our money is how we divide it up between spending on us and giving it away to others. What good is it for a man to gain the whole world yet forfeit his soul? In one way we were made to worry and feel stress. -Jago wynne
You may be the only christian your colleagues come across- LW, voice over artist on working life in soho, london.
